There’re days I wonder how I got this far in life without having found answers to three fundamental questions:
I have some answers, but they’re far from satisfying. All they seem to do is provoke yet another question;
Frankly, I feel less than comfortable that I have a handle on my true reality. It’s not that I’m living a lie – although I am. I sometimes feel I was dropped into life and rushed to define myself before I’d a proper fix on things. Now I’m not even sure about where I might look for answers.
If I start with the second question, why am I here, it is obvious to me that I’ve substituted ‘role’ for ‘purpose’. My ‘role’ has always been well defined, mostly by others, and I use it most days, but this makes me a human ‘doing’ versus a human ‘being’. As an actor, roles are the parts I play, not the real me.
If I seek fulfillment, I need to know the direction to proceed. I have too little to guide me and most is from external sources, and I don’t fully understand nor trust the society in which I live. It seems to me, generally, that I’ve valued expertise over wisdom, entitlement over fairness and comfort over enlightenment. If I’m not supported by wisdom, fairness and enlightenment how can I fulfill my purpose as I should?
I retrace my route in life to this point, and it hasn’t been smooth. Mostly I’m influenced by my direct experiences, my awareness of incidents and my responses to challenges. These, in turn, have resulted in the development of perspectives, leading to expectations and a series of predictable behaviors known to me, and others, as my habits. Habits reinforce my desire for comfort.
There’s a countervailing influence though, and I know it as intuition. I don’t know its origin for certain, although I’m sure it originates outside of my material mind, because it frequently opposes it. Yet it’s an integral part of me, and I’m often guided by it. Recalling that I’m a Life-berg, with eight-ninths of me out-of-mind, below the surface, I suspect it’s part of my spiritual awareness, that part of me that my senses have difficulty recognizing and appreciating.
My habits include defensive measures, placed there by my material mind to protect its vulnerable self. These measures are now barriers which get in the way, preventing me from pursuing the answers I need. Only the mirrors of other minds can test and validate my findings.
This is the Way! The pathway is clear, but I must be able to see it, and to have confidence in it.
Only then will I begin my crucial journey. #selfdevelopment #fulfillment #lifepurpose